[Inner 173] House of losses

He used to reside the storey before the last
I wonder,
he doesn’t make a noise anymore.
On the left he lived
Is he still alive, is he dead
He must have gone mad

On his existence i ponder.
this atmosphere,
A drop of stratosphere
Where it’s feasible the idea of death
Where also it’s still safe and serene

I don’t know what to feel
Because I don’t know how to anymore
My heart has been lost
And so, obviously I.

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[Inner 172] An anodyne anecdote

Dear,
Life’s love is quirky
throwing stones
sometimes comets
one’s way
with one dodged
there is more;
Always enjoyed her playful puddles
But never her cobbles,
her bouquet is never empty.
Dear, my heart is shaky
Earth is quaky
And i’m loving her
yet, so earnestly.

~with love, Yiena 💝

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[Inner 171] Dream, man

When i was in danger
He appeared just to rescue me
And without a word,
started doing what he had to do,

When i was sick
He brought stuff to help me
Without a word
Did what he had to do to nurse me,

When I was sad
He sat by my side
Without a word
I leant on his shoulder
slithered my palm under his
Intertwined my fingers around his
That’s all i needed,

Not just any expression of worry
But quick half breaths
Clenched fists
You could tell
Stress was eating his heart.

It was a tranquil world
of love and strong bond without a word.
My dream man,
appeared in my dream last night.

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[Inner 168] Letter to my husband

I’m willing to love
But i’m not willing to let love
Ruin me nor wither my dreams
Dear,
Listen to me
I can’t afford you judging me
Nor pointing your finger towards me

Dear,
You are the warm home i want to seek
When the world turns upside down
When it’a cold outside
When at the end of the day
I know at the end of the day
My home is not a four sturdy walls but you

I don’t want to fear losing love
because of my mistakes
I want my mistakes
To strenghten the bond

So accept me,
Teach me,
Tell me it’s okay
And shelter me

The world has been cold
And for a while
I have been waiting for you to save me
I know they say
Save yourself, don’t wait for someone
But i’m sure i will be safe
If it’s this type of love

Dear,
Don’t worry talking to me
To spill your darkest secrets
And how stupidly you got dark circles
Dear,
It’s not your money nor fame
But it’s sincerity that plays the game

I want love to plant my wings they broke
tell me it’s okay to not have wings anymore
That it’s okay to walk slowly
Because it’s the same destination anyways

Dear,
There are million stupid ways to make me stay
But only two to push me away
Don’t judge me
Or point your finger at me
Because i’m willing to love
But not willing to let love
Ruin me.
Dear,
When i cry
wipe my tears,
But don’t blame me for the wind that got in my eye.

And this one is the longest i have posted so far 🙈 Honestly, I have tried so many times to write this letter but the flow seemed to be heavy everytime until 2 days ago at exactly 2:45am when words felt to string just right🙈 Hope you enjoyed it 🌷🙈, Thank you all for your love and support, with so much love -Yiena.
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[Inner 167] Only for today

The million daily details they don’t know
And with a frown
What is
And where is the love
How is that being close
Ice cold to the core
Bringing them out is trying to score
A mystical number
A whimsical hope.
Dear,
On this journey of sloppy love
I continue to flop
But it doesn’t matter
Because now I choose to love
With ones, my million daily details
they want to know.

Photo source: Pinterest

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🎉[inner special]🎉 3rd and 4th “Ideal inspirational blogger award” combined~

I was nominated last week to my -maybe- 3rd and 4th Ideal inspirational blogger award by 2 dear princesses to me whom I wholeheartedly Thank for this kind nomination 🙈  Lovely Kunakshi  and    The sweeter than honey Krippa, they are besties who have blogs, they write lovely pieces so please do spare their blogs some minutes 🌷🐰

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Their questions to me:

When were you most scared?
Hmmm, one day in May 2017, I was coming back home on the train that was 2 hours late and so I had to take a cab home at 9+pm and the me who wasn’t used to being alone out at that time felt scared that my bones shivered and i was restlessly waiting to finaly get home safe, there was nothing to scare me but actually me not being used to staying out late by myself made me feel scared and uneasy and that was the scariest moment of my life …

What does passion mean to you?
Honestly, a while back, I didn’t know what passion meant and now I kind of feel one doesn’t until they start feeling it.
Passion is feelings of love that can’t be explained but translates as sacrifices, sacrificing sleep or leisure time up etc, sacrificing stuff that means alot to you just for this one thing, without feeling tired or annoyed, at all, and to the contrary it makes you feel fulfilled and confident as if you had just found the missing piece of your soul, everytime, which keeps you energised and excited all again so you never learn to attach boredom or tiredness to it, it never makes sense to begin with, that’s what passion means to me and it happened to be writing 🙈

Define life in a sentence.
Life is an uncertain journey.

What was your most funniest moment?
Maybe this morning? Riding the bicycle after 15 years? Wearing a long Abaya? (a full-length outer garment worn by some Arab women).
The street was empty and as i couldn’t resist it i just rolled my Abaya up and rode the bicycle 🤣 imagining what i looked like to people made me laugh all the while riding it (now i feel i should have taken a picture to share with you but sadly, i didn’t 🙈).

What does writing mean to you?
It’s a passion of mine🙈, something that no matter how tired or sick I’m I would still make time for~🙈

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And the rules of the award are as follows :

Thank the person who have nominated you and provide a link back to his/her blog.
☆ Answer their questions.
☆ Nominate up to 9 other bloggers and ask them 5 new questions.
☆ Notify the nominees through their blog by visiting and commenting on their blog.
☆List the rules and display the “Ideal Inspiration Blogger Award” logo.
☆ Provide the link of the Award creator of ideal inspiration blogger award as Rising Star from https://idealinspiration.blog/.

My Questions:

1🌸 What’s something that will always be in fashion, no matter how much time passes?
2🌸 Who do you go out of your way to be nice to?
3🌸 What was the last photo you took?
4🌸 If someone narrated your life, who would you want to be the narrator?
5🌸 What are you interested in that most people aren’t?

And my Nominees are:

Dainty M

Vrunda Chauk

Journey to myself

Introvert next door

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And that was our post for the Award, I hope you enjoyed my answers 🙈🌷

Thank you again to my Kunakshi and Krippa for nominating me~💝

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🎉[Inner special]🎉 300 followers’ special “Yiena, the story” woohoo~🙈

HellU~ this is Yiena,
And I’m here today with the 300 followers’ special post.
2 weeks ago I posted a poll and asked you guys to choose what you want to read on this special episode, and for that post I’m here today 🙈
Hope you guys have a fun time reading it and hope it will bring us a bit closer to each others 🙈
I tried to keep it concise as much as I possibly could 😭
Have a fun read~ 🌷💝

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Through her elementary school years, Yiena was always a shy and non confident child.
She would think million times before she rises her hand to participate although all the compliments she received and all the great marks she got, she never felt special.
According to common logic, a person can never be perfect, but she always only looked at the subjects she didn’t do well with, one of them was writing, she never got a good mark and she never expected it because whenever the writing class or exam was close she felt irritated, so during the class she would be counting the minutes, after the class, she is sunk into the depths of answering whys and hows and comparing herself to others.
To her, writing was a restricted area to which she is denied entry, the reason, she could never know.

Fast forward to high school years, Yiena was introduced to English and fell in deep love, and to her surprise she started receiving compliments. She doesn’t yet know what has exactly changed but overall it means her skills has gotten better.

 5th and 6th years of high school, the two years before university are the years she feels most confident about, she got great marks in writing, got compliments, improved and started to enjoy it more, and what’s notably new was that it never scared her again, she was no more afraid of the paper.

Little Yiena was always lacking confidence, therefore, writing about her experiences was a dire task, she always thought they were meaningless and therefore not worthy of teachers’ precious time.
Her papers were always almost empty, often times she would squeese stuff in just to make it look interesting at least for the teachers’ eyes.

University years were years of neutral writing, she felt at ease, she no more had to talk about herself, she actually loved it!
Giving her opinion on stuff was never easy because her low confidence teached her to never think much of her opinions, so she learned neutrality, no opinion was better, she kept topics open and actually teachers liked that and it played on her side,
she had also to write argumentation pieces, she again went for neutrality, it wasn’t new anymore that it was her secret weapon and she kept it safe and away from all the eyes.

Yiena finished university and her low confidence did still flicker at times, especially more when she couldn’t find a job and had to swallow a great lump of negativity from her parents everytime.

She then resorted to writing which was a peaceful tool she sought and slowly it became her warm shelter.
Most of times she would cry rivers of sadness while writing.
During the same period she started reading a ton of articles and poems, she always liked short stuff as they felt like little potions to feed on that helped her brain divert away abit from the negativity.
She never stopped writing but actually moved from lenghty stuff to short, poem shaped pieces and moved alot away from herself towards more diversity, and actually she never feared adressing her past experiences and so many of the pieces on this blog are based on  some of those 🙈

The idea of writing creatively bloomed when she started admiring the poets and writers, like how do they manage to write short stuff that says alot?, and that curiousity ticked her creativity towards more expansion, exploration and experimentation.

A few months later she discovered this community by chance and after a few days she started sharing what she wrote, of course she goes back and sees the amount of imperfections those early pieces carry around but she now knows that it’s not a perfect journey but a journey seeking perfection.

When she first began, she didn’t expect anything, she just wanted to share stuff, yet it gave her alot, from sweet people supporting her since the beginning to more confidence, that which she never dreamed having, she learns alot from fellow writers/bloggers everyday, Yiena is enjoying it all now 🥰

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So this was the story you all wanted to read~ i’m really curious as to what you guys think about it, so do feel free to leave me your comments~🥰🙈

Thank you so much for reading and Have a blessed day/night wherever you live~🙈💝-YIENA🌷

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🎉[Inner special]🎉 1st Liebster Award nomination wohoo~

First I would like to full heartedly thank my dear Hasan for kindly nominating me to the Liebster award😭, he is a kind person as well as a great writer so please do spare some minutes and visit his blog My Journey blog  🙈

The rules:

1🍀Thank the person who nominated you and provide a link back to their blog so others can find them.
2🍀Answer the questions asked by the blogger who nominated you.
3🍀Nominate other bloggers and ask them 11 new questions.
4🍀Notify the nominees about it by commenting on one of their blog posts.
5🍀List the rules and display a Liebster Blogger Award logo on your post and/or your blog site.

Answering Hasan’s Questions:

1🌷 What brings you joy and a smile to your face?
We are in a world that is getting colder day by day so what brings me instant joy and puts a smile on my face is when i see people caring for each other, people who never take for granted people who are warm to them and understand it’s not easy to give of yourself, be it your time or emotions, it’s never easy but those who are willing to, all the time, give me warmth, and so we should treat them well and never give up on them.

2🌷What inspires you?
Please believe that i’m never lying when i say “Everything”, a song, a person, a gesture, nature, everything around me inspires me 🙈
Yesterday during lunch time, i was listenning to a song this dear friend put on, he left and came back and started spraying some air disinfectant, it was dark, the song was on and him spraying it sitting in front of me made my heart skip a beat when we locked eyes and that inspired me to write something and so i took on to my memo app and that will be uploaded soon 😭

3🌷How do your respond to challenges and obstacles?
Being a Turbulent type INFJ, i get extremely nervous easily but lately I have gone through may experiences and I learnt that just when you reach that dark dead end of the tunnel it’s from which light will burst like darkness never scratched yoir back before, you just need to never stop and believe that dark never goes alone, we have dark and light so darkness shall end and light shall embrace us and all of that will evaporate into air like it never happened …

4🌷What something about the world that you don’t like?
Maybe you already know it now if you read my answer to the first question! 🙈
I hate the world being cold, people being cold to each other, people taking for granted warm gestures, people who take emotions in a light way.
I have gone through experiences that truly made me never want to take people in my life again, never love again, never be kind, slowly i saw that planting seeds of selfishness inside of me, i hate that, i hated that and then i started to think to myself more, i’m me, i’m a warm person, i have always been warm, i came like this to this world so the world needs me like this and it’s my mission to learn to keep that safe and it’s my mission to save that inside of me from learning ways that wouldn’t keep it safe but actually would perfectly corrupt it, so now I only try to keep myself pure.

5🌷If you could change anything what would it be?
Weapons, i want to take all weapons and destroy them.

6🌷To be a king/queen for a day or time travel to any period of your choice?
Being a king/queen is never an easy task, so i personally think they are not in so of a happy place but one full of responsibility and that personally would make me sick, i would want to make everyone happy and i wouldn’t be able to do that so nope I would rather travel to any period of my choice ha! 🙈

7🌷What kind of music do you listen to when your happy or sad?
Ofc when i’m happy it’s the upbeat ones as i like to also dance whenever i feel happy lol but when i’m sad it’s those sad songs or i watch cat videos to help uplift my mood a bit 🙈

8🌷Do you think social media is a gift or a curse?
It’s a double edged sword! And with that we have to be EXTREMELY careful … ~

9🌷Would you prefer to read minds or influence others?
If you know me on a personal level you would know then that i’m not someone who likes to influence others, i respect everyone and i actually look at each person as a special being so i never try to change people but i want to read minds and that is because many times i would be worried as to how this person feels about me or if this one thing annoyed them, what they love most and what do they not like in me so i can work hard so that being together would actually be a fun experience to both of us and not irritating, that’s why 🙈

10🌷 Any advice to those thinking about starting a blog?
Be honest, be consistent, be purely you~ 🙈

11🌷What does gratitude mean to you?
Well, it’s actually a bit challenging, i never want to feel grateful to someone not in that i refuse kind gestures or anything but I actually feel a bit burdened as to what i should do to return the kindness and if my act would actually touch them the way I want … that is why😭 other than that I appreciate every thing no matter how small it would be~ 💝🙈

Well I hope my rantish answers didn’t annoy you guys~🙈

Now my nominees ans questions:

Writing Rhymes

Sakchi 💝

Caz💝

Kriti💝

Lazarus💝

1☘ Aside from necessities, what one thing could you not go a day without?
2☘ List two pet peeves.
3☘How many pairs of shoes do you own?
4☘If you were a super-hero, what powers would you have?
5☘What form of public transportation do you prefer? (air, boat, train, bus, car, etc.)
6☘If you could go back in time to change one thing, what would it be?
7☘What’s the longest you’ve gone without sleep (and why?)

8☘Have you ever had a secret admirer?

And that was the end of the Liebster award 🙈 thank you for reading and hope you enjoyed reading as much as i enjoyed making this post! Once again, Thank you so much Hasan! 💝🙈

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